When the end is getting closer
And the earth has burned the sky
Now repent 'cause it's all over
Just let me die

Here's the massacre
A mausoleum fit for me
Lived a hundred years, 
A hundred years I didn't see
Gave all my hope away
Is there any left for me?
Bombs are splitting atoms
What can the future bring?
We can fill a million choirs
And wait till children sing
We can walk a million miles
And end up in the sea
And our lungs just keep filling
And lying when we breathe
The world's filled with liars
Liars like me
And I look at my child
It's fire, this feeling
It's blue like the sky
I see all of this meaning
I reach up to God and ask if I'm dreaming
I'm so sorry I don't have those things that you're needing
And darling, a kiss
Kiss me on these lips

When the end is getting closer
And the earth has burned the sky
Now repent 'cause it's all over
Just let me die

As my body lies here broken
And I'm carried to the light
Now my heart is finally open
Just let me die

Everybody says greetings and goodbyes
Everybody pays, no one knows the price
We know the price of sin
The sin of sacrifice
I know I'll sing again
But who can save me twice?
How much can we ask?
You'll get the answer first
How much can we kneel?
With the air that chills the earth?
The air keeps getting colder
My knees keep hitting dirt
The end, sink and crawl
Without the guilt of getting hurt
You ask who you love and you don't know
Do you?
The spirit of god, just passes right through you
You gave away heaven, handed right to you
And I can see it all
Tell me, is it true?
Kiss me, my darling
(Darling, I need you)

Where do we go?
We go, oh
Lord, I don't know
Where we go
We go, no
I don't know where
Where do we go?
We go, oh
Lord, I don't know
Where we go
We go, no
Lord, I don't know! 

When the end is getting closer
And the earth has burned the sky
Now repent 'cause it's all over
Just let me die

As my body lies here broken
And I'm carried to the light
Now my heart is finally open
Just let me die

A Puppet For The Man...

...I Felt You Like Electric Light.

I've been doing a lot of reflection lately. I couldn't tell you why, maybe I'm bored, maybe I over analyze this, or my I just like the sound of my own voice in my head as I type this. Well, I'm pretty sure by now it's none of those, and all of them.

I'm back with my girlfriend. Probably the roughest and most emotionally draining relationship I've had. I guess as we get older things aren't supposed to get easier. We both had reasons for wanting it to end, and for it to keep going. After a much needed break to get myself together it's never been easier. How it's supposed to be. I've always been one to love others unconditionally, either it be friends or significant others. It's sad to say, but once you've got my trust, I'm about as loyal as a dog. We're going to Mexico in September. <3.

My new roommate is cool. He coughs a lot, but I guess we all have our things. Better than living with someone who plays the drums, whacks off really loudly, or shits in the shower. I realize those are dramatic and equally as graphic images, but you get my point. It's all relative.

I've spent most my time evaluating my friendships, and trying my best to understand how the world actually works. It's been a confusing ride, and now that the dust has settled from many, many ties I've been forced to cut I feel bad, and disheartened. The only way I can describe this feeling is that now looking back I see I was SO FAR behind on "getting it", or I guess you could say behind my time. I was so far back, it seems I'm now pretty far ahead of my time, as well as everyone else's. I've grown up more in this past year, than my entire life. Yeah, that's quite a feat, especially if you hang out with me on a daily basis. I feel stronger, and it took a lot to get here. This past week I've been reduced to tears in my car while driving to lunch or home, and I have no idea why. I guess it's everything I kept inside for so long coming out in a weird way. I'd rather be doing this than going postal like Ed Norton in 'Fight Club'. The biggest bummer is that the ties that have been cut, didn't phase me at the time, but now they've impacted me in a huge way, and I'm seeing my flaws come to the surface. That's all I feel like sharing for now. Until next time...

And I'm An Idiot...

Got today switched up with the 13th. You'll probably never read this, but you know who you are, and I just realized why you were the way you were a few years ago. I'm sorry.

Carry on.

Six

Wish I could forget my dreams sometimes, or just not wake up in the middle of them. It's usually depressing because they are only dreams I'd easily swap with my reality. Especially today.

I'm Already Gone

Machine Gun Blues

Ever Have Just One of THOSE Days?

Pretty much how mine has been thus far...

Listening to: Party Hard - Andrew W.K.